he tries. he does. and he’s great. treats me like a princess. he makes me happy, but i know that i’ve been happier around other people. i don’t know if time will change this. i know what i need in a partner, in a relationship. and in some ways he meets those or tries to match me in those ways. he makes me happy, but i don’t see us going anywhere serious. i don’t see this lasting for too long. is it bad that i can see all these things already and we’ve only been together 6 weeks? we haven’t dropped the l word yet. and sometimes i feel like i want to say it because it seems awkward but when i get the urge to say it i immediately stop because i know that i don’t love him. maybe i’ve never experienced that before. maybe i have but it wasn’t right. i’m at the point in my life where i know what i need/the type of person that will match me best and i want to find him so i can start thinking about things long term. i’ve never dated someone i felt i could be with for years or marry. maybe i’ve met him, but never been with him. i know what i want. i know what i need. why hasn’t it found me yet?
:) too adorable to pass up
It’s funny how the right owl, For the first two pictures, Is always looking uninterested in the kiss, Until the last two where it starts showing appreciation and finally even returns the kiss.
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“This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin. You tried to reach deep but you couldn’t get in.”
not forced by my parents’s hand cause i’m not good enough or whatever bullshit they spewed at me. just cause i feel that i am at a standstill. maybe i’m not getting anything out of it anymore.
but then comes the whole part where i have a theatre scholarship and if i drop my major i lose it and can no longer complete college…maybe ill drop my performance major to general theatre cause i’m not good enough at performance, do a crew for my applied tech credit and then just be done. performance is more credits anyways. i’ve fulfilled the general major requirements aside from an applied tech.
i’m burned out. my faith is gone. i’ll make my choice when i go home for the summer and really have time to myself to think.